I know I haven't posted in a while but, as always, I'm busy with schoolwork. But I have been thinking about this subject for a while and I think it would be a good idea if I share.

I think that it is no mystery that women are very self conscious about their weight. It seems like no one is ever completely satisfied with their weight. If you're really skinny, you want to gain weight. If you're in any way fat, you want to loose weight. It seems that tensions have been running even higher lately with what I'll call the "curvy movement."While I do see the reasons behind this movement, I don't see the benefits of it either. Sure, it is unhealthy to idolize an underweight body-type but a curvy body-type can be just as hard for some girls to achieve as a extremely skinny one. The point should be that as long as you have a healthy body type, you're fine and others will find you attractive depending on their personal preferences.

So I know that this is not fashion or photography related at all but I have been feeling really bottled up and frustrated about this issue and I just feel the need to express it somewhere. .

So in order to explain myself properly, I need to clarify the situation I am in. It all started in the February of 2013.  February/March is the time that most returning university students start to think about where they are gonna live in next year. They then proceed to apply or sign a lease for the place they want to live in next year. After some thought, I decided that I wanted to apply to a dorm that was supposed to be for students in the school of engineering. This dorm was going to be be in a brand new building and it just sounded oh so appealing. So I went online and filed my application which even included an essay. I remember talking to my mom and being nervous about getting accepted. But I did get accepted and at first I was really happy. Then I realized that all the room types that I wanted had been filed up. All I wanted was a single room( a room for myself) but they were all already filled up. At this point I was really hesitant. I had a pretty bad experience with my roommate last year who would stay up until 5 am every night and started completely ignoring me towards the end of the year because I did not express enough interest in her and her friends ( I guess =.=). But I somehow convinced myself after a while that this was the best option for me. I figured that since my roommate was gonna have a similar major, it would be easier to get along with her. It took me over a month to reply to the director of the dorm so she obviously knew I was hesitant. But I proceeded and although I was nervous and worried about my decision, I simply tried to get it out of my mind. When I informed my parents about my worries, they told me I shouldn't stress about it now since it was so far away.